First actual update thingy!

It's so great spreading the love!
Here's a story from a girl named Kayla:
After a church competition our group went out to a restaurant to celebrate. I was feeling bad about my performance (because I’m very harsh on myself and I KNOW I could’ve done better). I was depressed and sad and really wishing I hadn’t (and wondering why I had) signed up for the competition in the first place. Sitting at the end of our table there were two empty chairs in front of me. I thought “two empty chairs. One for my boyfriend and one for my best friend and they will always remain empty.” I was seriously contemplating suicide using the bottle of pills in my purse. I figured that since it was night time if I snuck out the bathroom window and laid under the tree outside no one would find me until it was too late. I also considered hanging myself using my belt. I was feeling incredibly alone. Loneliness attacks your soul. It claims that you are unloved and worthless. It says: “No one wants to be around you. You aren’t good enough. That’s why you're alone.”

Then, to my major amazement, one of the more popular guys in our youth group called out to me and asked why I was sitting alone. To stunned to reply, I simply shrugged and smiled; pretending everything was “perfectly a-ok!” He then moved into one of the empty chairs in front of me, despite the protesting of his friends. I repeatedly told him that I was fine and that he didn’t need to talk to me, I wasn’t really a conversationalist. After the third time he (I think jokingly) threatened to slap me. Although our conversation wasn’t the most meaningful (I got to listen to a two hour explanation of a video game) I appreciated it. I loved the feeling of being recognized. I was no longer lonely.

Thank you for saving my life, again.


and her poem:
lost in confusion

drowning in misunderstanding

I’m seeing this illusion

I’m no longer standing

I cry for help

but no one hears

I know I’m alone

until dawn returns

I cannot see

and to it I run

the knife I unsheath

to have bloody fun

to end it

once and for all

to end this awful

bloody brawl

yet a light

draws my eyes

it sees my plight

the knife it finds

and it soon

begins to heal

wounded again

the bruises I feel

not on my limbs

but on my heart

the love of him

can finally start

its wonderful work

in me, of art.


As for niceness, I found this crazy idea for a random act of kindness! Yesterday I put a facebook status that said "I think (Name) is absolutely amazing and beautiful! Like if you agree!" and people really caught on to that!